Today I woke up horribly depressed at the loss of Journalspace. So many things in life are unfair. We all have difficulties and problems. However, this could not have come at a WORSE time for me. I was diagnosed two weeks ago with a condition known as intracranial hypertension and have been in our joke of a hospital being treated. I was finally discharged home last night.
Nothing in my life is the same. I have a “pseudo tumor” in my brain, pressing on my optic nerve. Should the pressure increase, I will go permanently and irrevocably blind as the neurologist so “kindly” put it. My husband, family, and friends are as always a great support. However, this is one of those times I desparately need to reach out to my friends on JS.
As I sit here realizing I need to take over 14 pills a day to maintain an appropriate intracranial pressure on a daily basis, looking at a future of possible blindness, shunts to the head, and the inability to hold my husband or children or be a nurse, I feel angry. And I’m I’m angry my friends at journalspace can’t be there for me.
Oh, I know, this anger serves no purpose and is even detrimental. I already regret posting this. But this is part of who I am. I miss you all. You have been my friends and confidants over the past five years of my life. I will never forget any of you, and wish more than anything I can stay in touch with you all.
The following video describes EXACTLY how I am feeling today.
All my love
Jenn a.k.a. LadyFury
