Today I woke up horribly depressed at the loss of Journalspace. So many things in life are unfair. We all have difficulties and problems. However, this could not have come at a WORSE time for me. I was diagnosed two weeks ago with a condition known as intracranial hypertension and have been in our joke of a hospital being treated. I was finally discharged home last night.
Nothing in my life is the same. I have a “pseudo tumor” in my brain, pressing on my optic nerve. Should the pressure increase, I will go permanently and irrevocably blind as the neurologist so “kindly” put it. My husband, family, and friends are as always a great support. However, this is one of those times I desparately need to reach out to my friends on JS.
As I sit here realizing I need to take over 14 pills a day to maintain an appropriate intracranial pressure on a daily basis, looking at a future of possible blindness, shunts to the head, and the inability to hold my husband or children or be a nurse, I feel angry. And I’m I’m angry my friends at journalspace can’t be there for me.
Oh, I know, this anger serves no purpose and is even detrimental. I already regret posting this. But this is part of who I am. I miss you all. You have been my friends and confidants over the past five years of my life. I will never forget any of you, and wish more than anything I can stay in touch with you all.
The following video describes EXACTLY how I am feeling today.
All my love
Jenn a.k.a. LadyFury
I am so sorry this is hitting you now. Just take it one day at a time. I know the hole in the middle of the doughnut seems huge enough to disappear into right now, but hang in there, because the doughnut ( the +) seems to be good for you as well. If you are sick of winter, come on down. We always have room for more! Maggs
I am so sorry Jen.I know theres nothing I can do to help, but if you want to rant, cry, shout or anything else email me for my number. I will always be here to listen and talk to you.
Rach
Hi,
I just wanted to say hello and wish you well. I too am feeling the loss of the great JS as a method of venting. I have so much to sound off about. I read your blog on JS regularly and I know that you are well equiped to deal with everything your recently diagnosed condition has to throw at you.
Stay strong, Kx
*waves hi*