I woke up this morning feeling depressed. There are so many reasons for this right now that it’s hard to categorize them. Let me try. Not that you might care. In fact, it’s actually pretty pathetic. But I work well with lists as they help me recognize solutions on occasion.
1) I HATE Alaska. I have come to realize this in the past year. The same people. It’s cold and rainy all the time. I really need sunshine.
2) My current health status. It could be a lot worse. I am much more fortunate than others. But I’m still depressed. The 14 pills I take daily make me feel worse than this stupid illness does.
3) Because I was down and out for two weeks in the hospital, I did not have an opportunity to 1) send in my fingerprints and passport photos to the St. of AK dept. of licensing to get my temp. nursing license, and 2) was not able to put in my application for the hospital. Everyone I graduated with has already completed all of this, so I am going to look like the lazy last minute gal.
4) I can’t sleep worth shit.
5) The kids go back to school Monday. I didn’t get to spend the holidays with them at all and I miss them so much it’s painful.
There’s more but now I’m more depressed. I just feel like a worthless shell of a person right now. I have nothing to offer and that’s something I am NOT used to.
~Jenn~
